From Warsaw to Delhi

Vraja Lila, Chapter 11

Indradyumna Swami: When it became clear to me how much Vraja Lila was dependent on seeing me, I arranged a flight from Warsaw to Delhi as fast as I could. When I arrived in Delhi the Vrndavana devotees picked me up, and we drove straight to Vrndavana. By this time I knew that Vraja Lila may not be alive when I arrived, and I was praying to Krsna to please let her live until I could see her. Half-way to Vrndavana we came upon a huge traffic jam that delayed us more than two hours. Finally, we reached Vrndavana and the Krsna-Balarama mandira. When I got out of the car I ran straight to Vraja Lila’s room. As I entered, I was struck by the intense spiritual atmosphere. Everything was very clean and pure. There were many devotees in the room having kirtana, and everyone turned to see me as I walked in. The looks on their faces were a mixture of happiness and sheer astonishment. Vraja Lila’s constant meditation that I come, had become everyone’s meditation. When I walked into the room I think everyone felt that Krsna had answered Vraja Lila’s sincere and heartfelt prayers.

I immediately went to her and began speaking. The room became quiet as I spoke very slowly, choosing each word carefully. Simha Rupini dasi managed to record our conversation.

“Vraja Lila, this is your spiritual master. I have come a long way to see you because of your very sincere desire to see me. I want to thank you very much for bringing me to Sri Vrndavana- dhama. This shows how the love of the disciple can control the spiritual master.

“I have come here to be with you at this moment of your final test. I want to stay with you, speak about Krsna, and chant the holy names of the Lord into your heart. Hare Krsna, Hare Krsna, Krsna Krsna, Hare Hare, Hare Rama, Hare Rama, Rama Rama, Hare Hare.

“Because of your sincere devotional service to your spiritual master and the Lord, Krsna has allowed you to come here to Sri Vrndavana- dhama. Now you can leave this world very peacefully in the association of so many wonderful devotees.

“Be detached from all worldly things. Take the mercy of the Vaisnavas in the form of their wonderful association and their prayers for your deliverance back to the spiritual world. Have no fear. See everything here as an arrangement of Srila Prabhupada. He is giving you his blessings. Become completely detached from your material body and all material desires.

“I am here now, so you are safe. We’ll have kirtana and chant. Just fix your mind on the chanting and the pastimes of the Supreme Lord.’’

[At this point I chanted Hare Krsna to her for five minutes and then continued preaching to her.]
“Vraja Lila, it was here in Vrndavana that Srila Prabhupada spent his last days. He showed us how to pass the final test of leaving this material body.

“The living entity has an attachment to the body because it is the place where he can satisfy his material desires. But a devotee strives to give up material desires and take up the desires of his spiritual master.
“I am very pleased with your devotional service. For so many years you have been my sincere and surrendered disciple. Now fix your mind on the pastimes of Krsna in the association of the devotees here and listen to the chanting of the holy names.

“Vraja, don’t be afraid to leave your body. Krsna will help you. He brought you to this movement. He brought you into the association of the devotees and Srila Prabhupada. And he directed you to your spiritual master. He has helped you in so many ways.

“All your devotional service has been preparation for this moment, so that you can leave your body remembering the lotus feet of Sri Sri Radha and Krsna. All the Vaisnavas are here to help you, and we will all be chanting, so you have nothing to fear. Don’t concentrate on the pain, just hear the chanting.”
[At that point Vraja Lila spoke her first words to me.]

“I need the mercy of the Vaisnavas.”

I replied, “Many Vaisnavas are praying for you. By their mercy you will be successful. You have the mercy of the Lord, the spiritual master and the Vaisnavas.”


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